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Often I'm told I need to clean up my act
although maturity is something I lack

"You're such a brat [Name]! You are so damn childish and ruin everything! Get out!" The angry voice scolded, his rage fuming from his body.

Her eyes widened and tears started to sting her [e/c] orbs. He never took his anger out on her knowing how sensitive she was, but her careless attitude cost him his patience. "I'm sorry Levi." She apologized, her lip quivering. 

Levi rolled his eyes at her, "I don't want your shitty apology. I want you to get out while I clean up your mess." He demanded, his finger pointing towards the front door of their apartment.

[Name]'s eyes fell at the broken vase on the floor. She knew how precious that was to Levi, it belonged to his late mother, the only piece he had left of her. Guilt filled her body and she did what Levi told her. She grabbed the coat on the hanger and headed towards the door. [Name] gave one last look at Levi and walked out, whispering a 'goodbye' to him. 

And so when some simple little problems arise 
I overthink them over and over again

Her feet dragged through the cold snow, her mind replaying Levi's words over and over again. Each word he spat at her took a piece of her with it. [Name] could still picture his eyes full of hatred and disgust in them. Those eyes felt so familiar to her, eyes that her parents had when she made a mistake and one of those mistakes was her. Their words still haunt her to this day. 

"You are such nuisance!" Her father screamed, his fist punching the wall beside him.

[Name] jumped up in fear, "I-I'm sorry dad..." She whimpered, her eyes flowing with tears.

"Sorry? Sorry won't pay the bills" He growled, "If you weren't a needy little shit, we wouldn't be in this money situation!"

She knew it wasn't her fault, her father had a gambling addiction, but his pride and ego got in the way and she became the blame. After a while she started to feed into their lies and accused herself. 

It seems that the world is just a troublesome place 
so sometimes I think that I should just end the pain

[Name] headed for her destination, tears falling freely down her cheeks. She felt as if she was holding the weight of the world on her shoulders and all she wanted to do was give up. She let everyone down in her life, she didn't want to disappoint anyone else. After all, [Name] let down the one person who loved her most. Levi.

Levi. The man of her dreams, the one who picked up each piece of her heart and fixed it all back together. How she would miss his voice, his embraces, the goodnight kisses, and relentless love he showed her. Of all the people she failed, she regretted dissatisfying him the most. [Name] didn't even want to think about how she let him down, it was too painful for her to believe. She just wanted the agony to vanish.

You're sick aren't you dear, I'm sick of the tears
Why can't everything just end simply?

"What's wrong with?" A gruff voice asked, startling the crying woman.

She looked up at the man and furiously wiped away the tears she shed. "N-nothing, Sir." [Name] quickly replied, praying he would go away.

The man sat on the bench she was on, "Bull-shit." He cursed.

She looked taken back, "I-I beg your pardon?" She stuttered out.

"Bull-shit. You're crying, that isn't nothing." He stated, "Now tell me what's wrong? Are you sick and dying of a unknown disease?" The man questioned.

"Sick, yes. However, not the way you put it..." She trailed off.

"How would you put it then?"

"I'm just sick of these tears, sir." [Name] confessed. 

She felt an arm on her shoulder, making her startled. He sighed and withdrew his hand, "I'm sorry. I don't know how to deal with whatever you are going through, but if you want someone to talk to I'm here to listen." He muttered, obviously uncomfortable with his situation.

[Name] looked at him in bewilderment, "Sir, I-"

"Don't call me Sir, I'm not that fucking old." He grumbled, "The name is Levi."

"I don't understand Levi, why are you doing this?" She asked in confusion.

"What? Are you saying I can't be nice, brat?" He scoffed.

[Name] started to chuckle, something she hadn't done in a long while. "Well you look pretty uncomfortable taking to me." She joked.

"I guess I'll need your help, so help me help you." 

Give a sign, give a sign, a reason not to die, 
give me a chance to prove my worth

[Name] smiled at the sweet memory and then walked over to her destination. She leaned her head over the wall and gazed down, there was a twenty foot drop. With a deep breath she pulled herself up on the bridge. [Name] looked up at the sky, "Show me a sign, give me a reason not to die." She whispered,and closed her eyes.

You always told me stars would guide me back home
although they only show at night

Levi let out a huff and threw the bag full of shattered glass in the garbage can. 'I shouldn't have been so harsh on her.' He thought to himself. [Name] hadn't been back for awhile and it worried him. He didn't know where she had gone, and the tiny thought in the back of his head started to grow and manifest into fear. He needed to find her before she did something that would destroy him.

Quickly he walked out of the apartment and into the cold of winter. Levi glanced at the ground and saw the familiar footsteps of his beloved. He smiled thinking of the comforting words she once told him.

"Levi, no matter where I am. The stars will guide you back to me." She whispered, burying her head in his chest.

"You know stars only come out at night, brat." He pointed out.

He felt the small woman huff in frustration, "You're so literal Levi." She mumbled, sending vibrations throughout his body.

Levi carefully followed the footprints, hoping it would lead to her. After walking for several minutes the footfalls ended. He looked across to see a road full of cars zooming by and beyond that was a wall with a certain [h/c] girl on it. Levi's heart dropped from his chest, he quickly sped towards her, ignoring the honking cars. "[Name]!" He screamed running to the love of his life. 

Step back from me
Please leave me be

"[Name]!" An all too familiar voice called her.

Her head turned to face a pair of terror stricken eyes. She gave him a sympathetic smile, "Levi, just go. I don't want you to see me like this." She confessed, looking back down to her permanent destination.

Levi's hand grasped her small wrist, "You don't want me to see you like this? Are you fucking kidding me? Would you rather prefer me see you buried six feet deep?" He questioned, "How selfish of you! You didn't even consider how I felt. Goddammit! If you die, i'm going with you!" He screamed, tears flowing down his face. 

"Levi I-" She began, but he cut her off.

"If that is an apology coming from you mouth then shut up! I won't forgive you if you do this!" He growled, "Please, just come home..." Levi begged, the tone in his voice changing to despair. 

[Name] did as she was told and leaped off the wall, falling into Levi's arms. He held her, burying his head in her hair; the smell of vanilla and Christmas engulfing his noise.

You always showed me so much kindness,
I don't deserve it, I have failed you too much

Her tears started to stain his jacket as she let out loud sobs out. Levi coaxed her whispering sweet nothings in her ear.

"You're beautiful." 

"You have worth." 

"I'll never let you go."

Every word he muttered to her replaced every lie that she believed. Each touch repaired her broken heart and she fell more and more in love with him. 

"Why are you doing this?" She choked out.

"What? Are you saying I can't be nice, brat?" He chuckled, repeating the same words he told her years past.

[Name] smiled, "Of course not, Sir." She sighed, "I love you Levi."

"I love you too brat."
with now reading this
Please don't say anything hurtful
You don't know what people are going through, so it's best not to say anything rude.
BUILD PEOPLE UP, NOT TEAR THEM DOWN (just like a mjolnir can do)


Feedback is always appreciated

Attack on Titan (c) Hajime Isayama
Writing (c) Me
You (c) Levi Icon (by BG) 
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Valeriagoth325 Featured By Owner Edited Jun 13, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
The feels are choking me right now!!! Levi I need your comfort!!!!Danisnotonfire: FEELS Danisnotonfire: FEELS Danisnotonfire: FEELS Pikachu Crying Plz Pikachu Crying Plz 
Emmasenpoo Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2017  New Deviant
FEEEELLLLLLLSSSSSS Danisnotonfire: FEELS Feels tears tears tears tears tears tears tears tears tears Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Llama Emoji-73 (Sick or Not feeling well) [V4] Squeal! Squeal! Squeal! Squeal! Squeal! Squeal! 
kesmor18 Featured By Owner May 27, 2017  New Deviant
feels Danisnotonfire: FEELS feels Danisnotonfire: FEELS  
LisaLove765 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2017  Student General Artist
I-I can't stop the tears!!!!!! Ugh... brat.... That one word just...when is all lost I want someone to say that one word to me...
Azdoodle Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2017  Hobbyist Artist
This was beautiful, I'm literally crying
Keep up the good work Author-chan 💓
TsukiNS Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017
Am I the only one to feel actual, physical pain in my chest?
Lover-Of-Anime237 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Enderwolfparty Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2017
Nope it hurts like hell if I'm being honest.
Valeriagoth325 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
So true.
Novalinne Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I thought this would be cheesy and unrelateable. now its 2 am and I'm crying my eyes out.

very well done.
Kawaii-Author-Chan Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2016 at a loss for words GOD DAMN WOMAN...THIS STORY...OUCH MY HEART...I was actually crying thoWaaaah! 

Cry forever omg cry rainbow cry Cry run Miuna Crying Icon Komari Kamikita (Crying) [V5] NOOOO sobbing - crying Llama Emoji-08 (Crying) [V1] Chisaki Crying Icon Hiyori Crying Icon GIF Star vs. the Forces of Evil -  Feels SpongeBob (Cries) [EXO] Kris ''Legit'' Crying Emoticon Oshawott cry plz Kiara cry 
Gamergirl1530 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Finally a depressed reader that survives😍😍😍Awesome fanfic btw keep it going
the feels :')
VampireMarcheline Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2016  Student Digital Artist
EmmaWoodTheSkeleton Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2016  Hobbyist Artist

Dovahkiin55 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
You always pick the perfect songs!
MetalWolf-AuraPrime Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2016
H E L P M E I ' M C R Y I N G
sleepingbeautybill Featured By Owner Edited Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
oh jeez
im crying now
I wish someone could comfort me when depression is being an asshole
I hope nobody else feels what I feel
but ye
good story. :dummy:
ALLIE-ACKERMAN Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016
*crying* s-so beautiful. 
OMG thats so OOC of him
royaldere Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
i'm sorry he wasn't perfect for you.
FujoshiTan Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
if he was ic, I'm pretty sure reader-chan would've killed herself
YatoAndYukine4Life Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OMG...I am listening to the song We were born to die by Lana Del Ray and when (Y/n) was crying in Levi's chest the song lyrics were don't make me sad and please don't cry...Weird or a coincidence.
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Coincidence? I think NOT!
DigitalHeart25 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
this is so emotional, i couldn't hold my tears, and those words you said: 
"Please don't say anything hurtful
You don't know what people are going through, so it's best not to say anything rude.
they showed alot of care, you actually are one of the most caring people i've ever known..
:) thank you!
bullet1918 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2016  Student Writer
this made my chest feel weird . i saw suicidal and almost jumped a fence that lead to train tracks . but i am more than happy to talk about it and help others through these type of situations as i believe it needs to rise awareness in depression .
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yea, I once almost stabbed my throat, then my brother stopped me
but of course I still suffer the asshole if depression
bullet1918 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Student Writer
i was suicidal and stayed in hospital but if you want to talk let me know XX i don t mmind talking about mine t all XX
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
aw thanks.
It feels good having someone who cares enough to let someone Talk to them about problems.
bullet1918 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Student Writer
me too and when i feel like shit i write it makes me feel better writting wat i feel into fan fics most of mine are based from my feeling and alot of people like them xxxx yeah want to talk msg xxxx
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I have writers block currently so I cant finish my reader insert
Ton-Ton-Com Featured By Owner May 22, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I loves it!!!
ToastySandwich Featured By Owner May 4, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I loved the story but wouldn't it be Suicidal!Reader?
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Edited Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Because depression is sometimes linked to suicide or suicidal actions/thoughts[Sounds like a medicine commercial jfc]
Merilda16 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
animelover2578 Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2016
beautiful thank you
CinnamonPie29594 Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Those deep penetrating words triggered tears, yet I read them anyways because these words are life
Aura-bloodrose Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2016
Just ... just beautiful
Araki-Haiisho Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2015  Professional Writer
OnyxDream Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2015  Student Writer
I wish my life were as well written like this. All I want is this happen to me. 
Great work tho! I didn't mean to guilt trip you!
Victoria-Walker925 Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2015  Student Writer
Damn, anybody order a box of Feelios?
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I ordered 15 million apparently
thats how many times I realised how wet my bed covers were cuz of my tears thanks to these emotional af stories
Victoria-Walker925 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Student Writer
Commander-Ludwig Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hat was legitness
KatLuvsCandy Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2015  Student Artisan Crafter
Levi in all honesty you did say to get out... so !
amliajane12345 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2015  Student General Artist
I read the first line of the song and I'm like, I swear I've heard this song somewh- Oh wait, this is Irony.

This was really beautiful and it hit me right in the feels, like the dead center.
FreeInMyMind Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2015
hnnnnrrrrgh feeeeeeeels but good feeeeeels ; - ;
Violeta-Adopts Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Celia7645 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Awwwww! The feeellllllssssss!!!! Aguuuuu!!! Hnggggg!!
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